i realised having music in blogs is irritating.

especially when people auto play it.

i mean like people dont give a fuck what music you like.

may be, people going to your blog already have music blasted in their headphones from their music players, and to have your blog music interupting is just plain sad.

so yea normal solution is to pause your blogsong right?

Labels: who next? your mother. and then your father.

Labels: NEON NEON

umm? did my words say i was trying to find trouble. gosh. get your facts right before judging goddamit.

and what the fuck is with people butting in? this is between me and him. no use coming to help the other party dammit.

which part of my BOLD words say i insulted him. quote me one. "waiting for him to find me"?
its like ohmygod R/E/A/D!

read the fucking words after that. nevermind i quote for you "i wanna get to know you more (as a friend...im not gay to those homophobes...like me ^^). 'cause i hate the fact that my impression of you is a stalker"

oh and thank you angeline for your awesomeness.

oh and you never change dewi. still short. HAHA!

to the person im refering to. read my label. and if u wanna know who it is. hint : not in my current school

p.s nick is high today. i like. taufiq gives awesome advice i like moooreeee.
and AT MUST GO PLAY L4D WITH US ONE DAY!

Labels: get your facts right.

had migrane attacks after training. so happy i scored like freaking 124371654715376214 goals against seniors but the migrane attacks after that were fucked up.

i was feeling so lethargic, i had to take the bus home. the bus only had to make ONE FUCKING STOP FOR ME TO GET OFF! wasted 69 fucking cents.

i went home and got knocked out.

bottomline : im unfit. FUCK!

i woke up and remembered i saw a somewhat hot malay chick inside the train on the way home.
my friends were all up and down to her. i had to open my big mouth and said "she lika minah abit" and i spoke almost too loud and i thought she heard me. dammit i covered my face and brisked walked away from her as far as i could.

haha lucky her boyfriend not there. if he is, i think i would have landed in the hospital now.

so yea i must keep reminding myself to keep my mouth shut.

oh ya and im waiting for you to find me. dont worry i wont bite. i wanna get to know you more (as a friend...im not gay to those homophobes...like me ^^). 'cause i hate the fact that my impression of you is a stalker. so...come only =)

EDIT : OH! heard you said you shouldve joined floorball so you can whack me with your stick. violent much? sorry i thought u not beng but after hearing that i changed my mind.

if you still dont know who you are, its you FABIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

highlight of yesterday. cant believe how a girl's pms can totally spoil my mood.

today rush to complete assignment and lepaked-ed with angeline at friz.
fun fun.

hates it when a person from foreign bodies start dancing randomly when they walking.
i mean like. dude wrong place wrong time.

i hope my buddy nick dont do that.

yea rants sorry.

ill be called
LLCOOLA!

you know why?
LLCOOLA B A L P.

which means
ladies love cool akid because aku lika pro.

LOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!
yushi will be like showing the italian what the fuck shit to me already.

speaking of yushi
umm scored 2 today...you?

i realised i have unknown readers.

and to the one whom i think will read this.

HELLO FABIANNNNNNNN!!!!!!! =DDDDDDDDDDD

end post.

oh ya. akid watch ur mouth.

i tried laughing gas today......i think. and my mind blanked for a few moments.

time check :8AM on a sunday

looked at my comp knowing that i have more than 20 conversations unreplied

4 were confrences and the rest were single conversations.

i remembered i was feeling giddy due to exhaustion.
and knocked off, hit the sack, catch some snoozes right away.

let me tell you why; FLOORBALL
training 4pm to 9. 4 to 5 started out with drills and shit
the rest of the times we had matches
5 to 9 = 4 hours

my legs were jelly my muscles were aching and my head is spinning.
yet i still DARE to walk home.

when i reached home. i saw nick's pm that hes made it into forgien bodies. that just made my day really. made my head spin a little less. made my muscle ache lesser and made my legs feel more...human.

you dont know how much u deserve it bro. i congratulate you once again for your success. hope you do our school, and more imptly our DVE02 THONNK!(this was an inside joke during one of th confrences i didnt reply) class proud.

oh and yushi. u missed a great floorball session. we played AGAINST the seniors. yesterday and u dont know how much i wanna gloat at you for my countless goals i scored ^^. and yesssss dota soon.

congrats taufiq for that miracle of having to sign in msn. but... nurhaqim?

and dewi, yes you will get the old akid back. and taking that quiz still doesnt mean that ur not shallow. you still are.

yes i have read all your chats with me and i apologise for not having to reply them coz i was so darn tired.

oh i need t keep my mouth shut more often. to avoid pissing some people off.

and a floorball ball hit my face yesterday, it felt great, thanks senior.

got to work on my match skills.
im a center. BE A CENTER! if u always want to go up front, BE A FORWARD!

D+ for colour theory assignment?
plain sad. just expected coz i just drew on it and shit. my next, next assignment, i will put in more effort and get an A+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
dream akid

i nid a job t earn extra for some needs. allowance isnt just enough.
but nevermind. cousin beloved will help me...right?

umm throwing a frisbee is hard. but it looks easy.

yushi...sucks

floorball > touch rugby

and this is what happens when we didnt have communication skills for two weeks.
miscommunication for the f-ing win.

lithium by evanesence on repeat.

and rain, yea lets go t emo haven soon. call me yawww...

sometimes i wish i could just...have no emotions at all.
have no feelings.
so i wont go through this shit.
after th wake up call from youknowwho, i sat infront of my comp. just thinking.
i know. i need to let go. i just cant. now thinking about it makes my head spin.

id really like to thank youknowwho for giving me a slap in the face. even though youre miles away from me. just reading those words hurts me like fuck. and whats more it made perfect sense. but i just cant accept it. i just cant explain it. it just hurts. thoughts overflowed in my head.

i want to let go. i want to let go. i want to let go. i want to let go.

among all of the things my friends said to make me feel better. yours impacted me the most. and it didnt make me feel better. in fact. it hurted me the most. more than any insult anyone has thrown at me. but it did wake me up.

ive decided i just have to accept the fact that she is and will always be, my friend. and nothing more.

whats more. another someone said i have changed...alot. and im sorry i made u feel that way. but im still me. just abit busier. and with ALOT of other things in my mind. i want to just let it all out. i just dont know which t let out first. im sorry.

what youknowwho said its true. im just in denial. lieing to myself. flooding my own mind with false hope. and thats not me. thats not akid.

im the annoying happy go lucky asshole. im the guy who never watches his words. im the guy whos straight forward. im the guy who...who...

i want th old me back...

amy lee is th sex.
hope i can get in for floorball. i hope i hope.
i melted when u said ____________
and whats up with someone today. pms mai make others pms leh. but i dont mind. tahan oni
i know how u feel. but th thing u did/said at lunch today really made me pissed. but nevermind. tahan oni, i know how u feel.

i realised i need kerina alot for painting. when she left. i had a hard time painting and ended up
screwing my colour wheel and my shirt up. KERINA I NEED YOU! for painting.

once again, amy lee is th f-ing sex

some things to say.
jing thank you for being suck a great host. you put in so much effort and shit being the host for yesterday's assignment meet.

th least i could do is to hide my face from you so your eyes wont hurt so much.

thanks to friz nick edmund for bringing me up when im forcing myself down.
thanks at for your hurtful sarcasms. made me wake up... some how.

BUT DONT WORRY PEOPLE! I HAVE OXY 10 ALREADY! WOOOO!

realised being a host, too tiring. hence i shall not be one.

you know what...
fuck it.
haha! i miss the annoying me.

family time was great. learnt a few more things from my wise dad.
took a long walk. to let go.
ill just go with everything planned
lets just hope everything turns out well.

i realised i havent been a good friend.
my words can get out of hand. it can hurt. im sorry to those people whom i hurt with my aweful words
i realised that im distracted.
i realised i take my friends for granted.
i realised that im being a fucking attention seeker
i realised ive been a burden to my friends
nick friz fiq. im sorry

i realised a friend is staying away from me.
i realised i have a very good friend. but i didnt appreciate him/her
i realised im repeating everysingle shit
i realised that my friends would be better off without me
i realised that im fucking ugly
i realised i have very very low self esteem

at kerina jing. im sorry

i realised that im hopeless
i realised that i have alot of caring friends but i chose to feel like a loner.

most impt. i realised im a loser.
so haters. feel free to add in. my tagboard is open

Labels: im not looking for pity. just forgiveness.

yesterday was fucking crazy.
went drinking with poly mates
vodka something which cost a bomb
and it was emptied within minutes.
2 of us got drunk, in fact 3 but yushi was totally mellow and controlled
while friz and at got fucking crazy
friz was blabbering nonsense while at was getting out of hand

i had a hard time controlling at.
sent her home by cab.

hafriz was like. shit seriously he cant keep his mouth shut when hes drunk for gods sake
i almost wanted to slap him. or may be strangle him to death

at. she drank coz shes emo. i forgive her for that. its totally no problem really. youve been a good friend and sending you home was the least i could do. i mean you REALLY cant go home yourself.

today.
i dont know why the fuck i suddenly miss her. i came to school and i suddenly got a rush of mixed emotions

i love my classmates for giving me support. but i dont know why i feel more fcked up when u guys comforted me.

i dont know if i should stay away from her to forget her or just continue what im doing.
coz i know i wont and will never get her.
i mean just look at me. PIMPLE! LOLOLOLOL! okay stop it. fuck seriously im being a fucking girl

hafriz convinced me otherwise. but i dont know. and the ciggs are my thanks to you.

stayed in nyp from 12pm to 10.30?
waited for nick for his foriegn bodies audition. hope u get it bro. you deserve it dude like really.
but im still pissed at you. im sorry but i still am. but i dont know why. im sorry. but i am.

i need to fucking forget you i swear. damit.

it must be your power to infactuate people easily.
yea it must be infactuation. shit.

im emo
im emo
im emo

saw two kinda cute girls at esplanade library today and and and GAH fuck emo.
shud have at least said hi to them la. FUCK! IM EMO I SWEAR!

me is a pathetic loser. kill me now please. just hit me with a baseball mat with a sharp point sticking out of its top. like fuck serious. kill me ima loser. akid has no balls. akid has no balls akid has no balls akid has no balls

emo aside, i finally got to sing with at! broken by seether feat amy lee. and and i was contented.

fuck! wah serious ah. i cannot even walk up to them and told them my fucking name?!?!?!
what the fuck serious. i planned to say "hello, i think you re cute" and walk off. BUT NOOO I DIDNT! COZ I HAVE TO FUCKING BALLS!

i had to call jing yi, kerina to tell them they're cute just to make me feel better. and i told at that shes cute. lol i called her on the phone even though i was just beside her.

oh wait i got one more person to tell her shes cute too.......okay done

okay i feel better now. i think.
okay im not.

fuck its the first time i failed this kind of shit. eh serious im pathetic. fuck

oh and at. lucky by jason mraz feat colbie cailat soon. hehe.

all i wanna do is bang bang bang bang bang

oh jing yi pangseh'ed us today. sadface. would be fun-ner with her.

nick. you can sing dude. pitchy here and there. but you can sing! duet soon.

akid has no balls akid has no balls akid has no balls

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